Change of plans
I’m sitting in a hotel in Hiawasee GA right now, I have decided it’s time to go home for a bit. I could tell you it’s because I fell and hurt my left side, I could tell you it’s because I have a minor infection, I could tell you it’s because I’ve been sick everyday since I got here but all of those things are only minor factors in my decision to go home. At the end of the day I’m going home because this isn’t what I expected. Right before I left my mom said that I should have fun, ever since I hiked in Spain that has been my mom’s advice! Frankly hiking the AT has been the farthest things from fun! My plan is to go home, stay for a few days, see a doctor about the not being able to breathe thing, then get my car and head back down here. I plan on putting together a series of day hikes through the highlights of the AT. Go see my sister and explore the east coast while providing a little trail magic to other hikers. I have been here for just over a week and I have found out that I thrive on structure and control and the AT has zero structure!! I haven’t felt this out of control since I was in college and that is a very scary place to be for me. Some people find freedom in hiking I found an endless pit of scary places. I truly enjoyed my training to get to this point and I want to have fun like that again, and I think the solution is to give up the idea that I need to hike the AT like everyone else or every inch of it. I’m looking forward to many things and I know people will say it’s better if you hiked to it but I don’t think that with how clouded my head was anything could be pretty if I hiked the whole way there. I am finally at peace with my decision and hopefully will book my bus home tomorrow.